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Xiao sitting with her toy in warm bedroom light.

Xiao

Tiny tabby,
enormous lore.

Xiao is the cat behind my left-wrist Cat & Toy tattoo: a small striped girl with dark ears, black paw pads, and a toy she carried through the house like a relic.

Her Story

The little one who came back to herself.

Xiao came home in May 2020 and became one of those presences that quietly reorganizes a life. She is small, fluffy, watchful, and somehow always the emotional center of the room.

Before Disco, she used to play with her own tail. After a second cat entered the household, that stopped. The constant was her toy, which she carried around at night while crying out with a sound somewhere between a call and a tiny roar.

When I moved out, Xiao started healing. The tail games returned. The toy kept making its rounds. The tattoo is for that exact version of her: round, soft, alert, recovering, and beloved.

Measurements

Build
Tiny, plush, deceptively round
Markings
Dark ears, white chin, black paw pads
Eyes
Saucer-wide and deeply supervisory
Signature object
The green lion toy
Known range
Chair throne, bed sprawl, couch takeover
Healing marker
Tail play came back

Photos

The Xiao archive.

Chair monarch, bed loaf, toy guardian, mirror inspector, and reluctant but photogenic participant in affection.

Xiao sitting upright with her green toy in front of her.
The toy witness.
Jenn kissing Xiao while Xiao reaches one paw toward the camera.
Reach first, receive affection later.
Xiao lounging on a dark blue chair.
Chair sovereignty.
Xiao stretched across Jenn on a couch.
A very small cat occupying a very large amount of space.
Jenn holding Xiao while Xiao faces away.
Held, but still supervising.
Xiao curled on a bed in warm pink light.
The round era.
Close-up of Xiao with Jenn reflected behind her.
Extreme proximity, serious eyes.
Cat and toy tattoo line art.

Cat & Toy

The tattoo keeps her with the toy.

Ten translated Xiao into fine line and color: the round little tabby, the red bow and string, the toy that stayed constant, and the details that made her recognizably herself.

Open Cat & Toy on the tattoo page